Monday, April 28, 2008

In my home

Think of someone in your past that you have had a conflict with--someone who you think or know hates you. Someone you've never been compatible with. There must be someone--an old neighbor, someone you fired, a co-worker you never clicked with, an ex. Think about that feeling--hate.

Then give that person who hates you the characteristics of no conscience, no remorse, no comprehension or concern for consequences. Make that someone have grandiose fantasies of self-worth and entitlement.

Now put yourself in a position to police that person, for their own protection and your own, causing that person to have stronger feelings of hate and resentment for you.

Now place that person in your home, at night, while you sleep.
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Think you will sleep soundly? Think you will be in a healthy state of mind and body?
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Now have others call you about this person's behavior outside of the home--wanting you to fix it, or at least hear them vent about it. You now have to answer to this person's problems in other social settings. You are considered part of the problem as you "raised" this person in your home--or so they think.

Then think of people in your immediate circle being affected by this person. Think of your family, your extended family, your neighbors, your community all looking at you to control this person who hates you.

Then turn to the party who placed this person in your home, and ask for their help. Listen to them while they tell you that if you try to get this person out of your house, your options are:


  • To be charged with criminal and civil abandonment and pay huge legal fee and possible punitive fines
  • To deal with the system involved in your life and be mandated to visit this person as determined by this party or else fall out of compliance with the deal and get this person back in your home.

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Getting Hives yet? Losing sleep yet? Blood pressure rising? Fearing for your safety? For your families' safety?
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Then deal with the bizarre guilt and disappointment in not being able manage this person in your home; for not being able to protect the rest of your family; for not being able to live a peaceful, loving life to the best of your ability.

3 comments:

tigger said...

Dear GOD... (((hug)))

Unknown said...

(((HUGS))) thats all I've got... and I know it isn't enough. (((HUGS)))

Lynette said...

Nothing but hugs. I am understanding more and more the absolute drugging that has been done before..